Thu. Jun 30th, 2022

Introduction: What is My Dysfunctional Childhood and the Impact it Had on Who I Am Today?

It is hard to argue that this was not the most important time in my life. I learned a lot of things in it, and some of them were difficult to learn. For example, I learned that my father was a racist and an alcoholic. When I first saw these things about my father, it changed the way that I saw him. I struggled with this new idea of who he was because they didn’t match the man who raised me–the one who taught me sportsmanship and good deeds–in any way at all. I learned that my mother was a woman who slavered over other men while her own husband lay dying in a hospital bed. That, too, changed my perception of her. I could not close my eyes to the truth anymore that, as a child growing up, I had little knowledge of who she was. He was just there as a stranger and I had no frame of reference for understanding his actions.
I also learned when I was young that the many people filling my life with love, who were supposed to care for me and be my family, did not. My parents were two of those people. They divorced when I was four years old and she remarried two years later. I was left behind in an abrupt and violent manner.

and i wanted you to know that all my life
and i wanted you to know that all my life

My Early Signing Years & Dyslexia’s Impact on My Future

By some standards, I was relatively retarded during my school years–although I cannot imagine how anyone could have known that. I managed to get all As and B’s in elementary school, but in junior high school I was placed in special education classes and given the diagnosis of “dyslexia”. By this time, I had grown into a fairly self-sufficient adult capable of performing many of the duties which adults take for granted. I had learned to read, so it was never something I thought of as a problem. But, I was placed into special education classes with kids who were two grades behind me and were unable to do the normal school work.
I remember once coming home from school (I was in 6th or 7th grade) and telling my mom that I got into trouble for helping the teachers. She said, “You can’t help the teachers if you don’t learn the stuff.” I told her that most of the things they wanted us to do, I already knew how to do.

and i wanted you to know that all my life
and i wanted you to know that all my life

Raising Awareness of Dyslexia

It was in junior high school that I began learning about dyslexia. I learned that it could be corrected with certain types of reading training, but that doing so would take months–and would involve a lot of hard work. During the first six months of this training, I earned almost no grades which passed the minimum for getting into college. I was devastated. I had always dreamt of becoming a big man in some big field–the president, if possible. But by this time, the chances of that happening were almost nonexistent. I was well-read on the physical condition that was causing my reading failure–my dyslexia–but didn’t know how to go about learning to overcome it.
I went to the library after school every day and studied reading. I would read the same book over and over again until I learned it by heart. When I knew the book, I would review my lessons in order to make sure that my recall was coming along fine. I was intent on learning to overcome my condition–I didn’t want to be hazed for the rest of my life. I certainly did not want to be a failure all of my life.

and i wanted you to know that all my life
and i wanted you to know that all my life

Pursuing the Independent Path Towards Actualizing Dreams & Achieving Personal Success

With the help of a special education teacher, I discovered that dyslexia was not, in and of itself, an obstacle to success. I also learned that would require many extra hours–and hard work–to overcome the problem. With my mentor’s help and encouragement, I began devoting all that I had to overcoming this obstacle. For example, he helped me write out every word in every textbook several times each day. He also suggested that I start writing poetry and articles. These were some of the best things I could have ever done. Writing helped me to memorize and concentrate on the words and phrases in books, making it easier to read on a higher level.
I also learned that many people with dyslexia go on to have extraordinarily successful lives. For example, Steven Spielberg, Albert Einstein, Rod Carew, Thomas Edison, and Walt Disney all suffered from dyslexia. Through hard work and dedication to overcoming difficulty, these people all overcame their disorder and achieved success. In fact, they all became famous and made millions of dollars.

and i wanted you to know that all my life
and i wanted you to know that all my life

What is My Personal Success Journey &

How was I able to do this? Because of my mentors and the encouragement that they gave me; because of the support that I experienced from many others, including teachers and parents; and because he had been a star student in college. Beyond this, I must be honest about the fact that my dyslexia caused me to want to make up for lost time. I viewed every extra hour as a chance to make up for my shortcomings, an opportunity to compensate for my deficiencies through hard work. This was a very arduous task, but I was determined.
After I recently left my job, I asked myself this question: “What have I accomplished in my life?” My answer was long.
I had imagined that one day I would sit down and write a book about the experiences that made me the person that I am today. In thinking about this moment, however, it occurred to me that certain events stand out in greater contrast to other indicators of success; these events weave together the fabric of my life and define who i am and what has become of me.

and i wanted you to know that all my life
and i wanted you to know that all my life