Thu. Jun 30th, 2022

Introduction

I feel stuck. I’m in love with a girl I can’t have, and she doesn’t want me which only makes things worse. I’m at a point where I don’t really know what to do. I can’t sleep anymore. I’m on medication for depression and insomnia, but that only helps so much.
When I first met her, she was just a girl from my school who liked me. She was perfect in every way, and we got to know each other better because of it. We became friends and then something more than friends; eventually, we were best friends. We shared everything with one another: secrets, dreams, experiences and our deepest thoughts were laid bare to one another without judgement or shame between us.

if i had to choose between her and the sun
if i had to choose between her and the sun

Why does our office buy the Carpenters’ Tool Box?

My co-workers are a lovely bunch and we are quite close. We do lots of things together besides work, but the one thing that’s been nagging at me for a while has finally pushed its way to the front of my mind. I’m in love with a girl I can’t have, and she doesn’t want me which only makes things worse. It’s a tragedy. I didn’t mean to feel this way, but it’s there – firmly planted; growing strong. For years I’ve hidden it, and it’s only now that I accept its existence. The pain is less sharp now that I’ve opened up and accepted it as true, but still there is the pain. I’ve tried to find other girls to love, but I can’t. I don’t want them, don’t love them anymore because my eyes are always on her, always wishing that she will turn around and look at me and say “yes”, but it never happens. I don’t think it ever will.

if i had to choose between her and the sun
if i had to choose between her and the sun